I am now in the second trimester of my pregnancy and I am enjoying it and finally accepting all that comes with being pregnant. We found out that we will be having a boy at the end of August. I must be honest that I was hoping for a girl, because of all the testosterone that is around me at home. Don’t me wrong I love our boys and I love my husband, but sometimes it wouldn’t hurt to have another female around here . I still am super excited about my son, aww I said “my son”. I really can’t wait to meet him and just love all over him. His dad and I just want him to be healthy.
It’s been a good pregnancy so far I guess. The only thing that has been on my mind is the mood swings. About two weeks ago or so I had a mini meltdown at my job. I was a bucket of tears and I just couldn’t stop crying. I continued to tell myself to keep it together and that wasn’t working. My husband had to pick me up from work early because I wasn’t doing well emotionally.
I started to feel that way again today but only for a little bit. I was missing home, home being New York. I was missing it because all of our family and friends are out there. Just the thought of it was really getting to me and just thinking about it would start up the water works again. Gosh I really do hate this emotional feeling; I don’t like feeling this way. Do I have control of this; do I not have control of this? I know that hormones are a little crazy because I’m pregnant but I just hope that it doesn’t get worse. I’m not built for all this crying. Like I told my husband “I’m from the Bronx and I ain’t no punk son” LOL.