It is June 23, 2016 and I am now thirty weeks pregnant!!
I’m feeling my little man’s movements more and more each day, and what a beautiful feeling it is. I’m almost there and at times it scares me because I don’t know if I’m going to do a good job as a mother. But then I have to remind myself that it’s not about me but rather about the type of mother that my lord wants me to be.
Now, this pregnancy has been a beautiful and scary one at times. It has been beautiful, because there is a small being growing inside of me and also because God chose me to be this child’s mother. But scary because there were times in which I had to go to the emergency room because I wasn’t sure of what was going on with my body and afraid that whatever I was feeling would affect the baby. Scary because any little ache or pain I felt had me calling or emailing my doctor. Being pregnant is no easy task; this takes a lot of work. It can take a toll on your body.
During this pregnancy there have been days in which I have just wanted to stay in bed. There have been days in which all I’ve wanted to do is cry. My pregnancy has affected me emotionally and physically. My mood has been all over the place, I’ve been very irritable and sensitive. Physically it is affecting me because everything hurts especially now that I am near the end. I can’t sleep on my right side because it starts cramping and it hurts a lot in the middle of the night so then I have to turn to my left side. The belly feels super heavy in the middle of the night.
I’m not getting enough rest and then I wake up extremely upset and cranky. All I want to do is eat and sleep. But I would trade this experience for anything in the world. I can’t wait to meet my little prince. I just hope that I am able to fulfill God’s plan for me as his mother.